looking forward

chooi hoong gone already... sigh... left me alone in hall again... i also want to go home... miss home so much ... i wanna eat ba zhang... sigh...
went shopping today at bugis... nothing much to buy again... can say almost nothing can buy... what's wrong with me ... so demanding... haha... price all ok ok... just that don't like the quality of the goods... what gss lar... bullshit and cheat ppl one... all like 'rejected' goods ... buy now or later also no diff... haha... but i'll still will go out every weekends... muahaha... ;)
wilber is in town today!!!!! damn... didn't go catch the star... tmr lar...hehe... ^_^
miss my "jogging session" today ... hmm... o_O tmr morning ba... :)
chatting with a 'long lost friend' ... this friend of mine use to be the one i wanted to put effort on .... but i took back all my trust on him coz of a small lie... i hated ppl lie to me... i no longer trust this friend... i still have phobia after so long... it has been 3 years... i've recovered... but phobia on putting effort on things i don't think i can afford to lose... i don't want the history to restart again... i decided to let this friend go... took back all my trust and degrade him... haha...
saturday night so boring... sitting alone in the room and entertain ppl online... why all the ppl i don't wanna chat all chat with me... and ppl i wanna chat with all ignore me.... so sad... where's my focus? where's my calm? why i've been so emotionness these days? where's the problems? am i being too selfish? please guide me to the light... i don't wanna see james m. in hell :S