sleepless nite

it's 1230am in the morning... argh... still can't sleep... drank too much tea... last nite had insomnia... can't really sleep well... and mei hwan kept waking up to kill mosquito... haha... there's a lot of things flashing in my slow reaction brain... and for the first time in my 22 years of life i'm so agree with mom... when things change, you will learn a lot... ya... it's quite true... i can sense the things around me is changing... although the changes isn't obvious... but i know something is different... especially during the transmission time ... *like talking about the transmission gas pipeline LOL* no matter it's me or others... everybody is moving... been thinking a lot after work today *actually yesterday ;P * till now... my graduation, my career, my family, my friends and lots of things ... settling up in singapore after graduation is another turning point for me... i've gone through many turning point in my life... Form 1 decision, Form 6 decision, my first director, KY's relationship, NUS admission ... those are the major ones that makes my life different... i've seen a lot of my friends have moved on... some moving lot more faster than me... some are still in the same location... some lost contact... friends are the people that everyday come and go ... it's how much impression you will give to others and vice versa ... i almost meeting a whole bunch of new people everday... especially in my IA time... it's really fun meeting new people... although their age can become my father... surely they are more experienced than i am... sometimes it's good to listen to their advice... but makes me feel like i'm nothing ... haha... just a yellow hair small girl to them... haha... building a network of relationship not an easy PR job... it's the trust... ha! can't believe i still believe in trust... *lol* it's not just to secure your life but also a part of interaction among human and so that you won't lost your ability to communicate... *lol*
living on earth is like playing chess... wrong move, no return... right move, does not guarantee check... decide the best move, you might win the game... recently following the channel 8 9pm show... men at 40s ... quite a nice show to watch... storyline normal but the way they carry out really touching... :)
after graduate i'll be in debt ... NUS, DBS and MOE ... hope can return to freedom in 6 years the most... next station... decided *for now lar ;) * .... Italy or Spain ... james m. always said all the money is in the States ... oh well... depends on your value for the money lar.... haha... USA not always the best place to live... i'll say all the terrorists are in the States... haha... *just for joke, if you think i'm serious abt tht*
oh well... finally can sleep after blah-ing all the stuff at here... nite...zzzzzz... .@_@